I want to be surrounded by a team that has the same levels of hunger that I do. People that have ambition. A squad that would stop at nothing to get the job done. This sounds like a simple thing but thus far it has proven difficult to find people as ambitious as I am. I believe you should use your talent and where you are clueless, you should engage someone who can deliver. Someone who specialises in that thing. Collaboration and sharing of opportunities. As much as I’d like to do everything myself, I cannot. I need the full backing of a team.
I need friends that understand that I am very unusual and are okay with that. I don’t want to be in a space where I keep explaining myself and the way my mind works. They need to be able to just get it. My destiny helpers that have the same revelation that I have and are prepared to take this journey. I don’t like being outside but I get emo when people don’t invite me places. It’s strange but its true. So a friend that needs very little emotional support would be very ideal. Oh and her hobbies must include an addiction to making money. That’s a dealbreaker.
In another lifetime, I’ll pay more attention to my physical health. Eating right, exercising and the whole nine yards. My worst fear is waking up when I am older and thinking, “I should have taken better care of myself.” Time is a gift we can’t afford to waste. Regrets over things that you knew in that moment you needed to do suck the most. I want a body like Nicole Scherzinger, there is nothing I can do to gain height but I can start running and doing those home work out videos until I have the money and the discipline to hire a personal trainer. Self discipline is a weakness that I need to work on. Was watching the Kardashians and the trainer says to Kim, “You are in control. You are not helpless. No one can force you to eat. It is you that lifts that spoon to your mouth to feed yourself junk you don’t need.” I really need to take responsibility, for a lot of things.
When it comes to love, I am living the fairytale with the man of my dreams. He is enough and then some. He takes care of me with nothing lacking. Spiritually, emotionally, physically, financially I’m all good. He has the same dreams that I have. Our values and beliefs are the same. These are things you cannot compromise on. He is strong where I am weak. He compliments me to the last letter. He has a brilliant mind and inspires me in my life and work.
I just realised that my wildest dreams are boring. I’m going back to bed.